(((hug))) Don't give up until it's definitely over. Keep fighting, honey ❤

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omg I hate how inactive I am on here lately ; A ; Sorry for the late response! I wish you luck getting enrolled in school (and passing your classes)! I hope all this stress ends soon for you so you can take a deserving break ❤

Happy Holidays! ❤ I miss you all. I'm sorry I haven't been very active lately. :C I am still on Subeta, just quieter for now. I have until the end of the day on the 23rd to pass my math course, (which I am about half-way done with,) or I don't graduate. If I fail Algebra II A, I can't take my other math course, Algebra II B, or the senior project, because they have to be done in that order. I can't try again next year, because I turn 21 next fall and that's the cut-off age for public school, meaning this is my last year. There is a whole other semester left this year, but since those courses have to be taken in order, if I fail the first, I can't take the rest. It's not as easy as re-taking the first failed class, because they told me the district only pays for a class once each year. So I can't try again. But I did get a 3-day extension, and I have an alternate plan; which is to take a state math test. If I pass it, I don't need to pass my math class(es.) I still need one more credit to graduate, so I would take two electives if I failed the class but passed the test, but if I pass both I only need one elective.

Unfortunately, working this hard means I had almost NO time for my boyfriend who I miss terribly, even LESS time for hobbies; games, art, and internet, and barely ANY time for holiday activities. I didn't get to go to the mall more than once for a quick trip, and I had to get others to get gifts for me. Some I got for people through the internet/catalogs, and some presents were wrapped by mom with a "From Bee" on the tag, and even I have no idea what is inside. That makes me sad because I love the look on someone's face when they open something I chose and gave them. And the mall thing is more than shopping. I love going to the big ones during the holidays and walk around; they have baubles taller than our house hanging from the ceiling in the 3-story malls, snowflake stickers on every store window, Christmas music is blasting, holiday drinks and treats are available, and I love to people-watch to see how happy everyone is. Some are there alone, in hideous Christmas attire that someone who loved them made I'm sure, some are coupled up and look so in love, some are with family and the joy on the kids faces reminds me of being little. I didn't get to decorate the tree or the house at all, which makes it look so bare, or help with Christmas baking. My mom made tons of cookies, but I was working and didn't get a WARM one which is the special part. I didn't get to watch more than one or two Christmas movies with my family, barely any of the CD's have been played, and I had to sit in the other room and work when family friends came to visit. I feel so alone, and while I have the holiday off, (24th and 25th!) and I'm grateful for it, I'm sad because the WHOLE MONTH is an event for me. The preparation and anticipation are great and it's not just about the day with stockings, gifts, and dinner with family, though the conclusion is a great way to end the year. I feel like I didn't have much part in it, and I like being a giver, more than a receiver. (But I still like gifts, haha.)

EDITED, posted too soon...