- Oof that sounds rough and difficult to balance how much you should be helping him and how much he can actually do on his own. I'm worried about my son because he also has a physical disability. It's a rare genetic disorder that affects the muscles in bones primarily in the feet, legs and hands PLUS he has type 1 diabetes (been diagnosed for about a year and a half now) so thinking about how he'll manage all of these obstacles in the real world makes me anxious and nervous for his future. I'd even say downright terrified. I'm his mom so I'll help him however I can but I know he'll need to learn to manage on his own as well. It's just how do you know when to let go and when to be there? It's certainly a challenge and he'll only be 14 the end of this month so I have time but still. It's weighed heavy on me since he was 2.

- Thank you kindly!! It was a good day :)

Yeah =D

I'm slowly working on the next chapter. Might be another day or two of depending on how I break things up.

AC troubles over here. There is finally good AC in the living room but it's a temporary portable AC unit so is loud. Much better than in the study which has no AC as the unit has been leaking.

- That's a question I've been asking myself ever since my youngest turned 22 this past May. He has Aspbergers and doesn't understand social cues. He lives with us and helps take care of me but I keep trying to teach him how to get along in the outside world. He goes along with it for the most part but sometimes asks me why I push it so much as he'll be living with us forever. I told him that may not be so and he may find himself on his own and need to know how to do something. he doesn't believe me. I think it's a kid's fantasy that Mom and Dad will alays be there but he should know that's not true thanks to my illness. I just don't know what to say to him sometimes. XD

- Can't your landlord do something about the ac? Florida with no ac is not fun. :( I loved the title to your last chapter. it was very romantic. :D ❤

We're working on the AC with the rental company BUT it takes some time to get things all back in order. One time there was six months until the AC in the living room was back in working order.

And glad you like the title :)

I got it from a line in the song Orion by Lilith Max.

- A/C troubles? It got down to 30 degrees last night. I wish we still needed a/c :(

yay for the new job you like!

hahaha lol! I don't think all 3 would fit in 1 carrier and if they did, all the hissing and fighting for space. No thank you.

Had a LONG day yesterday, worked first of, went home changed, fast sandwich and away to the movie theater where there was a ladies night where i had a stand with my Scentsy stuff. It was nice, talked to people, sold little and gave out cards. Hope it leads to something. My poor feet and back at the end... a very hot shower was needed.

Today is national (dutch) croquette day. Yum! Seems i will be having dinner with one.

Where do u live? Ur weather sounds a lot like mine here in PA. It got so cold last night that I wonder if we had frost. Its still very chilly today and breezy. Does ur son have issues walking and doing things with his hands now? I dont know much about conditions like that. My son is able bodied but he just doesnt seem to understand that u need to do a lot of hard work to get what u want. I think sometimes he thinks its as easy as in his xbox games to get the things he desires. He doesnt take social cues at all and when it comes to a boss or a supervisor directing him between that and his ODD he always takes everything as an attack on him. He also never takes the blame for anything and usually shoves the blame to someone else. Its just a whole lot of things that isnt doing him any good in the real world. and like I said he doesnt listen to me or his dad, or even his sisters when we tell him this is a better way or he did that wrong but try this. He thinks we r against him. No matter how hard I try and tell him we do and say everything to help him, he doesnt believe it. Its like he really does need to be smacked in the face with something big/bad to get him to understand. But he has had so many things go wrong in his life and he always asks why him, why does it always happen to him. We try to explain that he causes a lot of it. Its cause/effect from things and choices from his past, but again he doesnt believe us. As far as ur son goes all I can say is u do the best u can. Ive always said we try and teach them everything we know and then pray they take it, learn from it, and use it to better their lives. But apparently my motto isnt working lol But as parents we can only do so much. We instill the values and ideas and manners etc into them and pray they use it. I tell my kids the same thing that we wont always be here to help or guide u...... I know they know and understand that, esp since both hubby and I lost our parents recently. But I think they think it will be way off in the distance after they r really gown up and ok. But it might not be. I have a lot of health issues and my hubby has more now after his motorcycle wreck last year. So ya never know. I hope for the best for both of u with ur kids. And I hope my son gets on track here soon too. hugz

Ugh OMG Florida without A/C??? Yuk!! We were down in FL a few yrs ago for a vacation to Universal and omg we were dying! Its was the middle of July and we were there about a week and we Pennsylvanian's couldnt handle the heat and humidity. I brought things to help keeps us cool at the parks like fans and wet towels etc. But I ended up having to buy more! Plus I had to rent a mobility scooter because I couldnt walk the parks esp with the heat. We enjoyed the time there but its not like parks here where we spent all day and night there from open to close, we couldnt cause we couldnt handle the heat. It was awful. So I can only imagine how bad it is for u right now without a/c in the house. I sure hope it gets fixed soon. Or the weather breaks..... Its cool up here in PA Tries to send some ur way lol

Ugh its 1:30pm here and I havent done anything yet. My back is still bothering me from the fall I took in my yard a few days ago (Thanx Diesel) and then Kimmie and I have been taking walks after she gets home from work. Which should help me to keep moving and move thru the pain. But sadly after the walk im in soooooo much pain that I can barely handle doing anything. Last night I made dinner after and about half way thru it I had to go sit cause I just couldnt handle the pain in my back and legs. I thought loosing some weight and the walking and stuff would make things better on my chronic back pain. Apparently not yet. So I have been lazy today again. I should really try and get a few things done. Im not looking forward to it though. But hubby will be home this weekend and I cant let him see the house a mess, He wasnt in the best of moods on the phone last night, I dont need to be the one to help him into a worse one....

In the study (where I'm currently) no AC but fans there to make sure no water continues to leak up out of the floor. Oh, and there's a humidifier to better help with the humidity.

Which basically means it's hot as hell in here while being extremely loud xD

Oh that's horrible! Still hot here too. Yesterday was in the 90's, but today is in the 80's. So much better. And they are predicting a blissful couple days in the 70's soon. Oh, I hope its really time for the seasons to change and its not just a tease. But I'll take it! lol

How awful about the fall. If you are hurting that bad you should go to an ER or see a doctor. You could have done something more than bruises. They can at least help with the pain. <3

Glad for your new job. Hope all goes well. :)

and I can't imagine the challenges that you are dealing with every day. I admire your strength and the love that pours out when you describe their problems. Best wishes for both of you and your kids. <3 I am so thankful that even though my kids have their issues too, they are no where near as severe and life altering.

Very long day but sounds like you had fun and got some things accomplished. Croquette day sounds yummy! What kind are you having?

It's been raining a lot lately so at least it's not as hot as it could be.

I probably should have gone to be checked out. But im stubborn. I know I have chronic back pain and issues with my back so Im pretty sure I just jarred everything and it made it sore. Plus the walking we r doing is aggrivating it. But the ER cant help me with my pain, unless I truely broke something or was in a horrible wreck or accident, I wont be getting anything for pain from them. I was addicted to narcotic pain killers for a very long time. Im in recovery for about 7-8 yrs now. So unfortunately Tylenol is my best friend. Not that it works, but it takes a tiny edge off most things along with my daily meds that help with my chronic pain. I actually worry that when the time comes (and I know it will one day) that I am hurt really bad and need those kinds of meds again, or a surgery.... Cause my body "liked" them so much that I am afraid to ever take them again. Even a few days can put me right back into the addiction full force. So I hope and pray im safe and dont need any surgeries or any kind of pain care for a long long time. But thanx for the advice, I appreciate it.

Wow that sounds like a not so nice living area? Or am I reading it wrong? Water coming in from the floor? Well at least the de-Humidifier helps with the humidity. Id rather hot then hot and sticky. I use to talk to a girl in Arizona and she use to tell me it was like 120F and I was like OMG how can u stand it. But she explained it was dry heat only and not humidity (She use to live in PA so she knows what we have here) and she said its much more tolerable being that hoot temps but without the sticky humidity. So I think id rather that lol But I do feel for u, Its terrible being without a/c in the summer/fall temps esp in FL. Also Kysnier I gotta ask and I am so sorry if I offend but I truely do not mean to. Im old, 46, and I try so hard to be politically correct when speaking to people. But I am so afraid I am going to type something offensive to u. Since I cannot tell from ur account name or ur HA I have to ask. What r ur pronouns please? I just dont want to make a mistake. I hope ur not offended by me asking. I figured asking should be slightly less harmful then assuming and typing something wrong.

Well I sat around most of the day reading my book. So now I gotta stay up late to clean my house to get it ready for hubby to come home. I go pick him up around 11:30am tomorrow. So I wont have much time to clean before I leave since his work place is 2 hrs away. Soooo I'll be around off and on taking breaks in between my chores. lol Its my own fault, but I also seem to do better work at night anyways. But sadly I have been getting tired and not wanting to stay up late lately, So here's hoping I can stay up and get the stuff done. LoL TYYL.....

It's only in the study.

Living room (main area of the house) has a temporary AC unit currently. No water leakage.

Bedroom is perfect and nothing better happen O.O

Yeah, humidity can raise the temperature by a large amount.

I'm not offended that you asked :)

I'm agender which means I don't identify as any gender. It's part of the large non-binary umbrella. Personally, I don't care what pronouns you refer to me as long as you're respectful.

- I'm in VT, my hubby is actually from PA though! We had frost yesterday morning and again this morning, I hate it! I am not meant for the cold in the slightest lol

- Ah I see. That stinks it's so hot in there!

- Thank you! It's a lot of training (one computer training is a 40 hour course!) but it's going good so far. Not sure i'm retaining much at this point but i'm more of a hands on learner so once I get put into the action next week i'll be on a better path.

- your chapter title just goes to show that there is nothing new under the sun. ;) I tell you, I'd be right at Walmart buying a new ac if I were still down there. One ounce of heat and I'm a wilting flower. XD

- Have you tried getting outside help for your son? He sounds like he really needs it. I know you do all you can to help him but sometimes it just takes someone else with different knowledge then you have. :) - Sounds like you had a fun but busy day. Did you sell a lot? What kind of croquet are you having? :D - Vermont? I didn't realize that Vermont actually existed. We, down here in Virginia, thought Bernie Sanders was Vermont. 😆

I would say it is a subtle way of showing Jash's bard side that the plot tends not to focus on. As do some other chapter titles and the titles of each part. Each part has the name of a different song.

But, yeah, I can't take credit for the title of the chapter. Would highly recommend both the song and singer.

I can handle heat and humidity so at least I can bare working on the computer. I take frequent breaks, too xD

- A lot of writers do that, have little snippets of songs or quotes at the beginning of a chapter or included in the chapter title. Some even use it to foreshadow. Drives me nuts when they do that because I spend the whole time trying to figure out what the hint is pointing to instead of concentrating on the chapter. XD You're a hardier woman then I am, that's for sure! :D

I am picky with chapter titles when relating to quotes. So during the outlining process I don't put the final chapter title. Plus I'm not always good with coming up with titles.

I love putting Easter Eggs into my works and so sometimes chapter titles can have 2-3 meanings.

I don't intend to make it distracting as I don't think most would notice.

Yeah, I can put with quite a lot xD

Evening All.....

Hey has anyone else noticed that there is only a small amount of players on the site today? Kimmie noticed it first and I have been keeping an eye on it when I came on. It hasnt gone over 100 at all that I have seen. Usually its somewhere in the 290's to 310 for as long as I can remember its always in those ranges. But right now its showing 85 players. Earlier it was 70-something and once I saw 60-something. It seems weird. I was just wondering if anyone else noticed or if anyone has heard anything about it.

Thanks for clearing things up :-) I appreciate it, cause I dont want to say the wrong thing by mistake.

I dont think I could live in Vermont. I dont like the cold at all and PA is bad enough. The last few years I have been having a harder time in the cold, between getting older and the blood thinner im on. I just dont do well. Even when its not that cold oustide I am freezing and cant handle it. Everyone around me is cold but they are still able to stay out there. I cant, I carry a heater with me if I am outside, if we r out on the deck playing cards or something. LoL I dont do well in the hot either and thats a different med that doesnt help that. I need the fall weather all year long. But thats not possible in PA or anywhere on the east coast lol

Since my son is 27 I havent done anything with his conditions since he was in school. I feel it is up to him to make the calls and get himself into a phsyc or someone who might be able to help him further. I have talked to him about it several times, and have looked up some to call. But he needs to do it. I cant be doing these things for him anyone. He needs to learn how to care for himself in a lot of different ways. Kimmie calls her Dr's and makes appts and whatever. My youngest Katelyn still has me go with her to her yearly appt but thats just a comfort thing with her. She is slowly doing more things on her own. But she is only 21 and I helped the others at that age still. If u have any other ideas of who he would get help from let me know. I only thought of the phsyc dr's cause I think he needs to sit and talk to someone who isnt us, and explain himself and see what they tell him. Since he doesnt believe us. Though I am pretty sure he wont believe them either. If they say something that isnt how he thinks or what he wants to do or hear. Thats kinda his thing. If u dont agree with him, ur wrong. There is no in between. Anyways.... Thanks I appreciate u thinking of things to help.

Tomorrow Kimmie and I are going to something called Bingo Loco.... Its basically bingo but also a rave LoL Should be insteresting. I have never been to it before. Saw it on FB and thought it looked interesting. So we got tickets awhile back. It sold out the week after. If anyone is interested, there are youtube videos about it. They have been doing these all over the place, both in the US and other countries. Maybe there is one in your areas sometime soon. Anyways I will let u all know how it goes. I hope its fun. Ok Night All......

sold 3 things not much. I am hoping the ticket in my goodiebags will help as they get 10% off. Or my buisness cards. So far nothing. I had a normal one on soft white bun and mustard. Yum!

Went to the creative fair yesterday, did 3 bullet journal workshops, met new and old friends and shopped till i dropped. My bank account is not happy with me.

- Lol yup it's real! I was born in CA but we moved when I was 1 so I've been a Vermonter pretty much my whole life. I'm looking to move out though, it's crazy expensive here.

- I cannot stand being cold!! I joke and say I'm cold blooded but it's true. I'm constantly freezing. I have to have a heated blanket in the winter because I can't regulate my body heat and i'll shiver all night. We're coinsidering moving to PA because the winters aren't as harsh there.