Belated congratulations for 12 years on Subeta ! Luckily you can take all the time you want deciding what you to do with your Loyalty Box. Be sure to let us know when you do. I am a curious. :)
Calendar days are closer than they appear! [item=mocking clock]
^_^ Thank you and ! Bear Hugs! <3
:D Congrats !
And I don't remember if I said this in one of my other posts, but Congrats to you too ! ^_^
I had been frustrated the last couple a days as I couldn't see anything in the forums. I thought 'I'll just wait a bit and maybe it will have fixed itself', but it didn't. Eitleoidhme finally suggested it might have something to do with the new update they did. Read the news, logged off and on, and it's fixed! ^_^' Wish I had thought of that days ago... I'd been wanting to talk (usually late at night..), but now I don't know what about..
Ended up going on a bit ...
Though, today I went with my mom to a surgical vet place to get a second (or third..?) opinion on her (our) dachshund. She's had a growth growing under her front right leg for the last 5 years or so. But in the last year it's gone from a ball shape to a more lumpy and softer (still kinda firm though)..? She went down in the back when she was about 3 years old, and then again this last February. She's still on the mend from that. She's been getting acupuncture and we're working her at home to help. She's got weight issues as well. The three things each need one of the others to get better to be able to get better themself. It just seems a vicious circle.
The vet gave us a lot of information, and all of the different options and what would be involved with each of them. She took a sample and she's seemed pretty certain it's just fat, but if we went through with the surgery, she would send off a sample to get tested to be certain.
I'm just.. kinda worried. Pepper was never Trained to be a therapy dog or anything like that. But that's what she's been for my mom. A good companion. This is the first pet in my entire life that my parents have doted on this much. (before, dad was all 'I'd Never get frou frou stuff for a Dog' Now she has a whole box of toys and sweaters and Halloween outfits. He actually acknowledges her as his fur child.) I love her So much. But I know it would hurt them so much more if she left. (I know it will happen eventually, that's life. I just want better/ stronger mindsets before it happens.)
i dunno.. i guess i just needed to vent to someone.. So if you made it this far, thanks for taking the time to read. hugs <3
finally here to hit up your B/Day list babykins...enjoiy:) AND ...so i guess you both hit some milestones..what were they and congrats!!!
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BHH 299/300 I have one more item to catch in the last tier.
Thanks! Still annoyed, I had to do it a second time. But this time plenty of comments about progress here in the lair, to show proof.
Hey everyone how's things been ... Is it secret is it safe ???

:3 Hey ! What's up?
Secret? Safe? ...I'll let you judge.
Currently blasting out to my nightcore playlist loudly. If neighbors can actually here this I don't know that I feel too bad after all the times I've heard loud bass at 3 am.
Gonna go throw a quick load of laundry in, then rock out until it needs to dry.
I've been watching a few different action and fantasy anime lately. Watch anything interesting too? :)
(go on a bit after this, just warning..)
Gotta actually go to bed before midnight (probably won't actually be able to sleep, but hey, I can try..). I'm taking my little sister (the one I have claimed from Uganda) to her group in the morning so she doesn't have to get an Uber. Our church does this thing called Love Day every year where everyone that can volunteers to different groups set up to do things from all areas for the community (just search COTM Love Day). It's really fun to help, but this year my mind's just been kinda... blank? Hard to focus.. She signed up for one that goes and brings some treats to local police and firefighters to say thank you for their service. I'm probably going to end up going with her.
and here i get all emo and vent thoughts because i have no one to talk to Feel free to ignore
I'll be honest... I haven't had the best experiences with most police I've met (not all though). I know they are people and everyone is different. The job is like a tool, it's not bad, but the person that uses it could be a jerk. I know I'm just projecting prior history (that might be distorted from the moment..) onto the potential people I could meet. I know it would go fine. I just seem to feel anxious in regards to them anymore. (...i might be more comfortable around female cops.. i think..... i think I'm just not comfortable around certain kind's of men..? i don't spend time around guys except passing while shopping.. The job I was at for over 7 years only had like, three guys that worked there..
who knows, maybe I just have issues with a lack of familiarity of men and a couple of bad experiences..?
But I don't feel uncomfortable at the thought of visiting firefighters. Maybe because they seem to have a less confrontational job..?
(sheesh I'm analyzing myself late at night again...)
Sorry to anyone who actually took the time to read, I need to vent sometimes and feel ... sometimes I can only vent them online instead of rl..
Edit: ...an hour later feeling regret...
I think most people feel the way u do about police in general it's a job and some take advantage of their position that's for sure ... They r part of the community to and most have families as well ..,. Regrets they suck cuz u know when ur doing something and the first that pops in your head is "I'll reget this" that's your conscience letting u know it is not right even though u didn't hurt anyone u did know the loud music would bother them but what u forgot about were the other people who u may have heard the loud music as well ...

hugs You're right.
(..throwing out in a weak defense that the music was on a laptop that can't actually get that loud... :( But, again... you're right.. it doesn't matter if it actually did or not, more the intensions.. and I should do better. ) Thank you for being the kind of person to point out my silly choices. I appreciate it.
Gonna try and get on a better sleep schedule today.. I actually fell asleep a bit ago changing my avi.. ^_^""
: I surpassed my 12th anniversary here on Subeta. Truth be told, My cousin Sparkles (Sparky) Wheezle started this account and adopted only one pet. During my banishment from my tribe, he gave me his account and his sP and CSC the following year during the Murder Mystery Masquerade Event. I joined the Lair Bears shortly after that when I met Georgie and Laurie on the SL site. I had written them asking permission to use the code from one of their pre-packaged pet pages. Then I met Violet and then I met Lilly and I was hooked and adopted into the Lair. I started making a name for myself as one who could take HA images and photoshopping them into big montages. My most famous montage to date is this one:
Lair Bears To The Rescue!

I wrote a song and recorded it called the Lair Bear Song and posted it about 8 years ago. (It was at my lowest point struggling with ADHD). I may be small, fuzzy and weird...but I think I fit right in.
Wait...I may not have worded that correctly....
omg i almost lost seeing your post as you pinged Violet hahaha...congrason the 12 years..hard to believe isnt it..we all have such longstanding wonderful friends here!!! You are a sweet lil weasel and deeply imbedded into our hearts here..and that montage of yours..hahahha i remember we all were b;lown away and had screenshots of it..it was when we couldnt get going with the stupid lag on here at the time so we all wore our tin foil helmets trying to get better reception...i wlove seeing it again..remember to [post it now and again!!!
i have read all your posts and know how you feel at times...i have had several times of late here that i DESPERATLY wanted to talk with anyone of my friends and had great anxiety(not about anything just in general)...i felt so dependant on Subeta and that in itself scared me...i wish you would ping me when the feelings hit you as i would LOVE to just talk till the emptiness/whaterever it is we feel..fades away.
you have docunebted here very well and YAHOO at your achvmnt AGAIN..just one more and i havent gotten a one hahah.
i have a fear of police even when i do nothing wrong and see their cars behind me. But then hell i am apprehensive about Doctors as well having worked with so many that are assholes!! When you find one that actually LISTENS to you and gives you time after asking what elsa do you need..then you best hang onto that one!
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HUGS I hope it sooon, so I can move onto some other achievement needing attention.
: It's OK to go on a bit about things. My good friend Glitter had a run-in with the police who escalated a traffic pullover for expired tags into impounding her car, leaving her, her sister and the two small grandkids stranded in the worst part of downtown in a crime-ridden city. When she had a panic attack and burst into uncontrollable sobbing, the officer went to draw his sidearm on her. Her sister put the cop in his place and essentially asked him if he routinely shoots people with expired tags. She doesn't feel safe around most police now, and she's a very good law-abiding citizen. With a panic disorder that makes cops want to shoot her or taser her.
Thanks my dear, I hope to be here another 12 years too.
: I am a dumb. I hardly ever ping other users like that.
I've put a lot of energy creating things for Subeta and for the Lair Bears because I love you all so very much.
I've done hundreds of drawings and pieces of art,






I've written thousands of words (books worth, it seems) in the forums and even got the courage to write my complete life history into a book, all from interacting with all my friends in this wonderful place. And I do dumb things too. Like being told by snotty people to stop throwing snowballs at them because it ruins the look of their HAs and their fancy Masquerade outfits that they spent hours assembling just to have a naked-butt little weasel-girl throwing exploding snowballs at them. LOLOLOLOLOL! such memories!

my reply
I wish I could be more like Glitter's sister in that type of situation, but on the inside I feel more like Glitter. I've never been in a situation as extreme as that. I think there's something waves hand around head that's going on (adhd?anxiety?depression?rejection sensitive?multiple things?who knows what because I've never been able to get anything confirmed ever?) and so in the moment I try to act cool, but later I completely break down when I feel in a safer space.
my apparent late night rant sheesh i need to go to bed sorry
(srry, coming back up here after realizing i ranted a bit...)
One of the last times I had an issue was last year (?..memory, gotta love her blank-ness sometimes..) when I was leaving my parents a little after midnight. Was turning out of their neighborhood, Had looked both ways multiple times, but unfortunately it had a little bit of a hill in the opposite side of road direction so if someone was coming quick enough, you might not notice. But that's fine. They're on the other side. And the roads are practically deserted. U-turns are not allowed where I live. Yes, the vehicle out in the road goes first. But if the person turning out is Already turning when that other person gets to the point they want to turn, do they really 'get to go first'?
So as I'm turning I see this vehicle that was Not there a second ago and happens to say 'sheriff' on the side. (like, wth are you doin' this far in the city dude?) As soon as I saw that I had an 'oh sh!t' moment. He did a u-turn and pulled me over at the next neighborhood turn in. I secretly think he was just freaked out because he was going to do an illegal u-turn there and I was in the way. If he had hit me, I think he'd be in the wrong, but what do I know..?
He asks the whole 'did you look both ways?/see me?' stuff and my brain starts questioning everything. I Know that I did, but what if I'm just remembering things wrong? Police are supposed to be right. They're supposed to uphold the law. But I know I didn't do anything wrong. So why do I feel like he's going to arrest me? The whole time he's talking to me I get this vibe, like.... you know how females can tell when men have a certain opinion of them? I get this negative 'oh she must be some spoiled white brat who just came from a party or something. why else would she be out this late?' type vibe. (like, dude, I don't even have friends...)
I don't remember exactly what he said anymore, but he gave me two tickets (don't remember Why) one for an expired tag, and one to show up to court. Like, wtf?!
I did what I Always do. Smile, nod, say thank you/sorry, and leave. (...sometimes I hate that side of me..but that's what made me feel safer..) I drove back to my parents, and called my mom to come out to my car (I didn't want to hear my dad rant atm..). I screamed and cried and cursed, and she helped me understand what the tickets said and helped me decide what to do next.
I was Shaking. I had not felt That level of panic since I had hit and killed a deer on my way home from college. (i get sad killing a small bug that i hate, the deer was somewhat traumatizing..) I felt like I was in a constant shake for the next week or so it took to go to the court and pay to get things sorted out.
Overall, was I in the wrong? For the tag? Yes. I've always been bad with those. Did everything else feel messed up? Yes.
That's just the most Recent issue I have with them. Unfortunately, it doesn't matter whether they're talking to me or not. If they have an issue with someone in my vicinity, I kinda freak out.
(oh my word. sorry about how long that was... that concludes Hannah's issues for the night. stay tuned for work-related anxiety! it's a kicker! :D (joking here...about more rant, not the subject..)
le sigh -_-" Please forgive me mon ami. I did not realize I was going to go on like that. I hope you have a good night and a beautiful day tomorrow. My head has been hurting, so I think I'll try actually going to bed before midnight tonight. Bear Hugs you beautiful person you <3
i hope you dont mind i joined in and read your "rant" which is NOT what i consider telling your story or just talking in general to us all!! It isnt right that we all have to fear the fucking law when we havent done anything wrong..they like intimitading us . We had a new road built several years back making freeway access better thab running through our quaint town,,AND this leads to NOT having to go by the police station everytime i go home or from it...i now take the better access road. I swear they used to nab folks at that corner just before heading for the eb=nd of their shift to come back with a ticket, Lots of pullovers right there. now the new road bypasses the station i bet it pisses them off a bit! sorry you went through that!!!!
you know i LUUVVVV the Frieda with the short shorts and and the heart out thumping :):) i apperciate you every day even when you arent here!!
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Sorry my posts have been a bit emo lately. Normally people don't like Mondays, but I'm gonna make this a good one! :) I Will be happy dangit! I Will have a great day! >:) (tried to make a determined face here, not sure it worked..) List so far -> Quests, three different types of music, dishes, shower, laundry, and visiting my mom and 'little sister' to give them a couple things they asked for.
I hope you are having a wonderful day! hugs <3
ya it is nice to make a lil agnda for the day..or at least like two things i wanna get are ...It makes for a good day inbetween:) hope hyours has been a good one so far!!!
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