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Good! ❤️ I also have fair skin and pale eyes/hair combo. I'm also allergic to the sun so I know how it feels. Which sunscreen do you use? I only do indoor pool tbh.
I am. My mom tends to think that I'm a "forgive and forget" kind of person and I'm not. How are you today?
still not planing on it P: i have a sprint to finish! also i reached 150 mil and now i'm going for 300. how's your goal going?
can't you or someone take him out of the AC?
was she rude to you? i'm okay, thanks ♥
Always. We can't have any proper conversation and everything turns into a battle.
that sounds very familiar, i'm sorry. is she the kind of person who only listens to themselves?
No. She's the kind to take everything back to her. I have a mental condition? She does too. I have a bad day? She does too. I also always always have to lend her money and it takes a while to see it back (huge amount, not only $5). My parents are different, yet identical. I can't live with either of them. Hopefully I'll finish college early and move.
she doesn't sound responsible at all. you're her kid, she shouldn't try to up you all the time. how much longer until you can move out?
Four years, maybe less if I take summer school.
ouch. that's harsh, i'm sorry D: i definitely understand the need to get out of the parental house.
YES HELLO i totally didn't die off subeta either lmao
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lmao join the club what's up??
i'm so sorry have you finished it yet?
I just started. It's soo good, I cry. Also .. IT'S QUALIFICATION DAY.
nothing much tbh i found a site that has all the ghost adventures episodes so i've been spending the past week watching GA nonstop lmfao
it also has CSI: Las Vegas too which means i'm never gonna get my life back
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Indoor pool isn't an option for where I live (unless I go to a public one, which I don't do because it eeks me out) so I'm jealous you get one, I bet it's sooo much more comfortable than an outdoor one where the water gets hot under the sun and dirty from bugs.
I use Aveeno sunscreen right now, it's the only one that I've found that doesn't break my face out, and if something breaks me out it immediately goes into the trash or gets given away because of my past issues with cystic acne. I'm so scared it'll come back. e_e
How are you? It's been a few days. ;w; Sorry I took so long to get back to you and ! (How is remrem, too??)
I'M AT 220MIL RIGHT NOW! I had 260mil before that but I think I bought a little CSC and then the dress on my HA which was like 20mil?? Kicking myself for not grabbing that before it retired.
Frog is still alive. We have no idea where he is or even if he's really in the AC. We were worried he'd die if I turned it on but it's on and he still makes froggie noises.
There is a lot of people indoors too. In fact, I had issues with practicing my swimming. The people hang in the pool to chat about their lives. I use Aveeno too, but I am still stuck with cystic acne, so it's just a normal thing for me to have pimples now.
I am fine. I had the qualifications on Monday for the swimming team. I was classed first in freestyle, fourth in butterfly, second in backstroke (I'm the backup) and third in breaststroke. I am also doing the relay for freestyle. We were 35 to attend the trial. How about you?
My family hangs out in our pool so it's hard for me to swim sometimes and I get where you're coming from. I go into the pool to swim, not hang out in the water... I'd stay inside my house in the AC if that's what I wanted.
Cystic acne stuff that got long, sorry.
Sorry about the cystic acne, I know how awful it can be to deal with. :/ Mine thankfully stopped on its own a few years ago, or at least my doctor told me it's not cystic right now (though I still get normal pimples). But that wasn't before I had soooo many scars that my dermatologist compared them to craters, said she could probably put her finger in one, and set me up with a plastic surgeon for the laser (hurt me, wasn't as effective imo) and chemical (smelly and bad on my asthmatic lungs but pretty great imho, I'd do them again if I can afford them) peels, which took away a lot of my scarring. (I still have some shallow marks and some pink scars here and there, but I'm either no longer self-conscious about them or I'm able to cover them pretty effectively with makeup.)
My doc told me that there's nothing I can do to prevent it from coming back, just take Accutane when it starts again, and Idk what made it stop on its own to begin with, and when I was actively trying to treat it years ago the derms kept telling me that I was a prime candidate for Accutane, which scares the fuck out of me. So I'm scared to death of it returning and as a result I'm extremely careful and suuuuper paranoid with what goes on my skin. (Right now I only use Aveeno body wash and Aveeno sunscreen + my doctor-prescribed lotions, though I used to use Dove body wash and it was good to my skin, too. And I'm trying to look into makeup but without talking to someone with experience with my issues, and makeup, and can try colors on me, like at a makeup counter, I'm lost. One of my friends who also has it and I are always looking into products and makeup/cleaning techniques of those who have dealt with it for the info on how they manage it but I'm still extremely paranoid, even going off the info of others, since what works for one person obviously might not for another.)
Having cystic acne was the biggest hit to my confidence ever and Idk if I ever fully recovered from it mentally/emotionally.
Does that mean that you're on the team?? Congrats on grabbing first, and also a high number in the others??!
I'm doing okay! Helped my dad clean the pool and now I'm chilling in the AC. Also do you mind if I friend request you? ;o;
Exactly. I hate it and that's why I'm going to switch pool unless it's for practice with the team. They also use way too much chlorine. It's disgusting.
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Seems like you had some effective stuff at least. I'm glad it went away tho. I've had it for years now, and I lost hope. I tried a lot or oral medications and it never worked out. I've been using powerful ointments and gels with acid for years now, but it's never as effectice as taking the contraceptive pills (that I stopped years ago because it's dangerous and I'm not sexually active anyway). The scarring on my face is red, with little holes (nothing big). The other pimples leave a purple-ish circle when the pus comes out of whatever. It's genetic and my father had the same shit on him. Boiling water tends to make them go quickly without a big scar.
I'm sorry it dimnished your self-esteem hug. I cannot help you with make up since I don't wear any. I use Effaclar (30$) daily, morning and night to clean my skin. In the morning, I use Avene cream(30$) for acne skin. That's all I use. I need to use the cream otherwise I get a very dry and peely skin because of the hard chemical I use.
Yep, I made it. I'm really happy because even if I'm fat, I'm quick. The cardio paid off. I received my uniform on Monday (may take a picture later). Also, thank you :) I'm looking forward to our first competition. I'm already scheduled for 100m freestyle and backstroke.
And of course, feel free to.
Doesn't chlorine harm the hair anyway?? I know when you have fair hair it can turn it green or something? (Not that anything's wrong with having green hair, but it's not nice if that's not what you want and all.)
I'm so glad you made it, though!! But I had a feeling you would, you seem so determined! CONGRATS! When's your first competition? I'll root for you!!
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I'm sorry you've tried so much that hasn't worked more effectively, and I'm especially sorry that contraceptive was so effective but is so dangerous. (I've never tried contraceptive because of the blood clot risk, personally.) And I'm also sorry your dad had to deal with it as well. I never thought of it as being genetic but that makes a lot of sense.
I'm glad your scars aren't so big, though, you said? I feel like scarring on the face area is the worst because that's what everyone looks at most and probably first. :/ Have you ever tried Mederma or anything specifically for the scarring? (Aside from the treatments I had with the plastic surgeon I haven't but I've considered it.)
Thank you. ;w; I'm doing better with it these days, but it was hard when I was in high school and used products that would make my skin dry and flaky or angry and red, no one was super mean about it but some of them did identify me by the color of my face and that was embarrassing.
I've never heard of Effaclar or Avene but I might look into them and I'm happy you have the cream if it protects your skin from the chemicals. I just bought some Cetaphil daily cleanser yesterday and might get the moisturizer so I'm hoping that will work out for me. There are so, so many products, which is great since not everything works for everyone, but it's easy to get lost and hard to find what works for you. ;_;
I use a protective shampoo for my hair. The chlorine stinks and my skin get so so dry ;__; My coach can't do anything about it, since the pool is used by children during the day and they pee in the pool. The warm ups are next month, but the first meet up is in August. I need to practice my transition relay because I'm too slow. There is also a lot of attractive people on my team, damn xD
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I don't care about my dad. He could have kept his shit tbh. But yeah, the blood clot risk is really, especially since I am overweight. I decided to stop after two years, even if I miss it at time.
Nope, I haven't tried anything for the scars. I just wait until I don't have acne anymore, but will it end someday? Who knows. It's always on a certain side of my face, it's annoying. At least I keep a good profile lmao. I'm sorry you were bullied. I was bullied til my last year of high school and when I was younger, I used to beat the shit out of my bullies (which got me expelled way too much). I was a thug, literally.
These are expensive French products. You can also order them online, I think c: I don't use anything than these to. I tried Spectro, OXY, Cetaphil, Clean n' Clear and I gave up. I had too much allergies going on.
The pee is why I'm afraid of public pools. I mean I'm sure the chemicals must take care of any germs, but it eeks me out something fierce! Thank goodness for the protective shampoo, sorry about your skin getting dry though. :( But yay for attractive people. <w< Good luck at the meet up, a month is lots of time to practice!!! (At least I tell myself that since my trip is in one month and I am not ready, sobs.)
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Blood clots are one of my biggest fears. I have teeny tiny veins that are hard to find and hard to draw blood from even when found and my doctor told me usually the size of veins doesn't matter but I can't help but feel like I'd be fucked if I got one because of that. My mom has a big history of blood clots and got one while pregnant with me, which almost killed both of us, and I think it was because of that that she had to have routine shots in her stomach for the duration of the pregnancy. I'm just scared to death of them now. I've been given prescriptions for BC twice and even had the pills in my hands at one point but I've never taken any. I planned to start next month just to be safe for my trip but I'm unsure and have to talk to my doctor first. I wanted to start real bad because of how much it eases cycle symptoms (sorry if TMI, but mine are like a devil has taken up residence inside my uterus or something, Idk) and because of the help with acne but yeah the risks suck. ;_; Two years seems like a long time to be on it to someone who's never done it!
I hope it does end some day. ;w; In the meantime I hope it doesn't get worse or just continues not giving you harsher scars and things like that. And I'm so sorry you were bullied, I'll never understand how people can do things like that, especially high school kids who should know better. :/ Imho it'd be wrong to expel you for what has to amount to self-defense.
I've never heard of Spectro but I tried OXY and Clean n Clear and they didn't work for me either. I think OXY was actually the one that made my face all red and agitated. D: I also tried Neutrogena, Biore (made my skin pretty, didn't do much else for me), tea tree oil products from The Body Shop (gave me rough patches and smelled awful), Clearasil... None of that worked. My dad even bought me Proactiv (pretty expensive, at least it was for our budgets back then), and it made my skin pretty but it didn't rid me of pimples. That's why I really just use my body wash to wash my face. (Although Biore has this one product that is like a heated facial scrub? You put it on and it goes warm straight out of the bottle and I fucking love that shit.)
Oh! One thing my plastic surgeon gave me did seem to work for me, though. It was ummm Glytone, I believe. She gave me a mask cream, a bottle of spray for the body (since I had some acne on my back and chest), and I think also a cleanser, and I bought more on my own when I found where I could get it online. I enjoyed those products, but they're roughly the same cost as the French products you use and since I don't have a job I would have to get them via my parents, which I don't want to do.