im too afraid to look at all the things i have due

I mostly gave up on my online modules for history because there were just so many and they're not worth a lot of my grade... so I feel that...

ugh ik. and like i honestly just do not care enough 2 bring it up w her, but when we do like evaluations or w/e im gna mention smth. not in like a u suck way but an i think this could b better way.

tht rly sucks not knowing wtf it is, have the antibiotics been helping at least? oooo thts good abt the cat place, i hope it all goes well. tbh id rather clean up/look after cats 40 hours a week than do 20 hours a week of customer service. n thts awesome tht u could give mariah a nice surprise, im rly proud of u 4 doin tht tbh. it can be hard 2 admit tht u need help w things like tht bc we r so conditioned 2 view it as some sort of personal failing, but it isnt. some of us r just built different lmao. carpet cleaners r pretty ez i think, ive seen my mom use it a few times. i feel like the one my grandparents have (aka the one my whole family uses when they need it lmao) even has little diagrams on it

oh god me. moreso w my email tho. i havent checked tht in a good month oooooopsies

hnnnng i h8 sundays. i always plan 2 get stuff done throughout the week so im not rushing 2 get it all done sunday nite... and then im rushing 2 get it all done sunday nite

Hi friends I’m lonely n bored

hi katie, i miss u!! i hope ur ok

Aw marcel thanks I miss you too. How is life and things?

same old same old. i had a rly productive day yesterday and my apartment is relatively clean now so tht was nice. just trying 2 figure out how 2 keep my head above water ykno. wbu?

Aw good! I always feel better when my place is clean I actually had a rly good weekend and a very productive Sunday. I’m feeling kinda off tho. My partner is starting a new job tmr and is v anxious about that but I was having trouble being present bc I’m just kinda anxious myself and restless and kind of in a weird “give me space” headspace so idk. Odd night. I’m sure everything will be fine tho

yaaa sad confession but i vacuumed 4 the first time in like a month and it was Glorious. i feel so much better abt my surroundings

ohh well thts good u did get a lil bit out of the day! still tho ya, it does rly suck when like... the vibes r just Off. and its not as if u rly blame the other person or any1, but ur just like abt the situation. im sure once tmrw rolls around and they can get the scary first day over with itll all b okay

alright alright alright gotta speedrun these quizzes and discussion posts

I've had a pretty rough time. Just thought I'd come by and check in. I started at the discount store and found out we're one of the highest shrink stores in the company, so we're in a sketch area and that's just great. But I like my coworkers a lot and had a pretty good first day. I've also been doing the cat thing, I got left alone for the first time and was like what do?? but it was nice and I think I did everything except I forgot to wash windows. Oopsies I'll make that my special project next time and make sure I get them nice. I didn't get over to the hemp store so I bought cbd gummies at work, that's one cool thing about my store -- we sell a wide variety of gummies. So I'm trying those out tonight and seeing how it goes. I loaded up the El Camino with almost all my trash and need to make a dump run tomorrow. Have Mandarin in a few minutes, I feel like I'm falling behind but I'm trying. I was just doing a big dumb last class because I was sick so that made it look like I was doing worse than I am.

ugh thts scary abt the store, hopefully all will b chill. if ur not workin at nite then i wouldnt worry at all. the cat job sounds so cool, just gettin done whatever u gotta and then peacin out. im sure they didnt mind the windows, 4gettin stuff happens esp when ur new. do u feel smth noticeable from cbd gummies? ive never felt much from cbd in general, at least nothin tht i noticed. ya bein sick can rly fuck w ur brain, i dnt blame u 4 strugglin w mandarin a bit. what r yall learning rn?

blah my head hurts. might try to do a lil notetaking but i have 2 b up early 4 my zoom class so im not gna sweat it too much if i dnt feel like doin it. ive been so obsessed w the animal crossing dlc lately

I only work at night. The gummies really helped Mariah and I sleep :) we’re going over how to exchange money.

I still haven’t checked out the dlc! I need to get on that. My class is boring again today… just have one more and I’m done today

LOL i have a presentation tomorrow on the paper i didnt do

oh thts good abt the gummies, tbh i never did try cbd 4 sleep. maybe i should 🤔 omg lol just reading tht got this song from chinese class stuck in my head. it was like "zhege zenme mai? DUOSHAO QIAN???" idk it was rly upbeat and kind of a bop lmao. ya the dlc is like too addicting so if u wanna pass ur classes maybe dnt buy it tbh

aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh why are u not exempt from the presentation

i emailed her again today and she said it's ok next week. im working on the paper now im like 3/4 done so that's going ok at least. its kind of a mess but idc anymore

yay!! sometimes dude u just gotta turn off the care part of ur brain bc any grade is better than a 0% bc ur perfectionist ass could not turn it in (totally not speaking from experience ahahaaaaaa)

god i just cannot get myself 2 focus on/commit 2 homework this week. im going 2 my bfs parents w him on saturday so i rly wanna have all my shit done by then, cause even tho its due sunday like itll just b nice 2 have everything done already n ring in thanksgiving break tht way. idk if ill actually accomplish tht but i guess we'll find out

sitting here with my classmates who are responsible people like what the fuck am i doing how am i here i'm so behind and y'all know what's going on. good for them and they helped me a lot but im freaking out on the inside