- I'm actually going to Target tomorrow. I can take pictures of the section if I remember.

Do both of you have a job? Also, make a budget to help give you an idea of what you can spend on fun. Another thing that helps is to make food yourself instead of buying out frequently. (Not sure if you do that already.)

My fiance is the only one with a job, but his dad is helping with rent. I also get money in the fall and spring for school. I want a job, but I need to make sure it's flexible with school and one that doesn't deal with a lot of people. I have severe anxiety and I get sick frequently, so keeping a job is difficult.

Awesome, thanks!

We both do currently, and we both plan to when we move. Most likely both full time so we can afford everything we need. We do already cook quite a bit, so that's a good first step ^_^ We need to make a list of our expenses still and go from there. We'll have to both get bus passes because we don't drive, so that's an extra $120 or so a month. And we def need internet lol. Life is expensive, but I'm really looking forward to being out on our own.

I understand so much on the anxiety. I've been dealing with depression and anxiety for majority of my life, and working with the public isn't always easy. Kids make it easier to be relaxed and fun, so I'm hoping to go back to doing that. I will not miss cashiering. AT ALL. xD

Sadly, I don't think many daycares can afford to pay very much :/ You might be able to find a place in a city that pays decently, though. Buffalo had one of the better pay rates I've seen, but they were also super strict and you basically couldn't ever be sick and call off lol. I don't think education is taken seriously enough, especially early childhood education. because people think it's babysitting -_-

Yeah, it's illegal to discriminate based on orientation but it doesn't exactly stop people from being judgmental and making things uncomfortable. I had some trouble with a former boss because I had cut my hair really short & she was upset that my being obviously gay would be bad for business. <_<

Ahh, that's rough. Hopefully you can explore it more! I'm still figuring out my gender identity. I think I'm genderqueer or fluid? I'm often feminine, but being identified as a woman by other people makes me uncomfortable & I definitely have more masculine-feeling days and more feminine-feeling days. I dunno, though. It's complicated!

That's very true. But if you want someone to watch 14 toddlers, you need to pay them well. I'm not a glorified babysitter, I actually want to teach kids. Their minds are like sponges when they're young and it's so important for them to have positive role models and whatnot. I have so many feels xD

I totally, totally agree. It's so frustrating. I made 8.25 an hour when I was working at the daycare. Our benefits didn't apply to me, either - free childcare and education assistance. I don't have kids and I already had a degree, SO the only 'benefit' I got was free lunch. << The didn't even offer insurance and I worked 40+ a lot of times. Well-trained teachers can make daycare such an enriching and fun experience for kids! It shouldn't be corralling them into groups and letting them do what they want and turning on a movie, which I think people think is what happens sometimes because sometimes it DOES happen. One of the ladies was like that. I'd love to teach young kids again, and I thought opening an arts-based daycare could be fun. But, that's really dependent on the area because enough people around here wouldn't care if it was arts-based. They'd care more about the price being cheap. <<

Yaaassss, if you ever open one, let me know. I will work for you <3 Oh man, I wish I had gotten free lunch at the daycare I worked at lol. You could eat whatever the cook was making for the kids if there was leftovers, but they took it out of your paycheck. Honestly the whole experience there was kind of awful. It gives me a lot of anxiety about working at one again.

How has your day been, btw? ^_^

- We actually woke up too late to go to Target today, sorry. ;~; It gets crowded by 9 am.

I think being out on your own is worth it. And it's good that you already make your own food. The bus passes are cheaper than a car, because of car insurance and gas combined. As for internet, you get faster internet if you don't get a TV bundle. It's crazy how much they push a TV bundle. It's definitely a struggle financially, but I found despite my complaints about noise, I'm happier overall. I had a bad time of month last week, which might explain why I felt like everything was terrible.

Today and tomorrow are my "fiance is home" days, so I'm not online much. We're spending time with his family and we're going to play lots of games. :D

- I thought I was bi-gender, but then I felt like that wasn't right. I fluctuate between masculine and feminine, but a lot of times, I don't feel like either. Depending on the day, being called a female bothers me and I wish people couldn't easily tell I have a female body.

No worries ^_^

We would only be getting internet because we don't watch cable, and we don't need a land line. My sister lets us use her Netflix and Hulu for free, so we have that, also. I'm glad we don't have to worry about car insurance, gas, or potential car troubles. I do wish one of us drove though, for convenience.

Ooo have a good time with your fiance and his family! What kind of games will you be playing?

Heya <3 How're you guys??

Hey! I;m tired from work and chores and errands, but I'm okay. I start taking 2 different prescriptions tomorrow, and vitamin D in the next few days, so I'm worried about how my body is going to react to them tomorrow while I'm at work. How are you bb? ❤️

Oh my, BUT hopefully they'll also help :* I hope you get some relaxing down time too btw ^-^

I was just looking at my fb in horror. So many things to catch up on o-e All I have is pretty old art posted ;A; Otherwise it's been an up and down day, but it's up at the moment so yay! Trying to motivate myself to write x-x

I reeeally hope it helps haha

Oooh writing sounds like a nice thing to do this evening. I might color in a bit, but for now I'm just relaxing and finishing up questing for the day.

Will be wising you the best on that one <3

Writing I'm still at the staring at the blank page stage XD Coloring after questing does sound lovely though! Gah a little worried about the quest-a-thon rate this time around x-x

Hi! I'm doing great, actually. Had a great first day at my internship. I think I got sunburned for the two seconds I was outside, though. XD How're you??

nods I feel that way, too. It's so complicated! My girlfriend and I talked about gender on the ride home from dinner tonight, and it was a good talk, but mostly about how confusing it can be and how sometimes people make it more difficult by imposing their rules on you.

Oh, no! That really sucks. D: Free lunch was a nice benefit. It was sort of part of the program, that we had to eat with the kids, so I wouldn't have made a lot of sense to change us? They send leftovers home a lot, too, so I sometimes got lunch and dinner haha. That sucks that it was a bad experience. Daycares can be rough. There was crappy stuff about the one I was at (like the board of directors not liking kids), but really good stuff.

My day was great! I had my first work shift at the museum today, and it went well! A lot of intros and learning what's going on, but I found out my first projects and whatnot. How was your day?

That is fantastic to hear!!!.... well not the sunburn (vinegar seriously try it) :P I'm fading a bit today but I'll be ok :3

Oh man, I'm really glad you enjoyed your first day!! What kind of projects will you be doing?

My day was busy. I unloaded a huge truck today with one other girl at work. Then I had a dr appointment where I got birth control again, vitamin d, and a new type of depression/anxiety medication. I'm nervous how my body will react to taking them both tomorrow after having not had anything for a month.

Other than that and doing laundry, my day has been relaxing xD

I'm going to be writing a blog series on women artists and professionals in the glass field (it's a glass museum, did I mention that?), taking a lot of photos for Instagram of events and visits from artists, writing a blog and FB posts of the FAQs from the library database, analyzing use of their new touch table screen thing that lets you view different pieces of art from the collection, ... Those are just my first week projects! The Outreach Librarian said she'd have more ideas to discuss after next week.

Oooh. Good luck! I hope your body adjusts alright. I've never taken any anxiety medicines, but Amber has, and each medicine was a little different with how her body reacted. Have you had luck with finding medicines that worked in the past?

Haha, yeah, I'm pooped now. I forgot it was sunny and summer-y out after having weird weather lately. It'd been rainy here forever. hugs

Oh man, that sounds so cool! Very modern day and neat. ^_^ I can't wait to see what else she has in store for you.

I took one a while ago, but it made me super fidgety and didn't actually help. So I quit taking it, and it took about 2 months for my body to feel normal again after coming off of it. So I;m nervous to try a new one.

When I post some blog or stuff, I'll probably share it on FB if I'm allowed :3

One of Amber's made her feel really foggy, so she got off that one because it made her not pay enough attention when driving. The next one seemed to help, but then her doctor's office and messed things up for her <_< It was like a dumb misunderstanding where we moved for the summer and they were like "Oh, sure, we'll fill that when you're away. Just give us a call when you needed it" and she DID, but then they said she needed another appointment before they'd refill but we were living about 3 hours away. And she tried to call different times and got different people and no one would let her speak with the doctors.

(12 am me is loopy. Weeeee. @-@)

- Yeah, it's true having a car is convenient.

I really don't know what we're going to play. It's kind of just whatever we feel like, and we have a pretty large game library.

I hope that the new medication works out well for you. Side effects can be not fun. :c

- I'm pretty good. I'm excited to try a new nachos recipe involving nutritional yeast sauce.

I've been bad and have been neglecting quests. I did all of them on Monday, but I haven't done most of the since.

- Yeah, having imposed rules on my gender was awful. Like, I hate being feminine all the time. Though, I broke it a lot of times subtly. :P