Thank you so much but they aren't mine to make

Keep your head up. Reach out if you need help, ever.

If I'd say I changed anywhere, it would be the opposite of your experience, Treggify. I used to be happier, and I guess the world happened and I'm now balancing on the edge to the abyss of depression. But life goes on, right?

That's unfortunate. Sorry to hear it. Anything you want to get off your chest?

Are you me?

Haha, but seriously, I look back on my younger self and cringe at my old posts too. I was also a very sad sop, had nasty depression, and it oozed everywhere. Not pretty at all. It's funny how age changes perspective, even after the ol' teenage years - we're constantly changing whether we realize it or not!

I'm back in school, living a happy life, and all of this change happened in a manner of 3ish years. It's scary to think about sometimes, but also very exhilarating! Kudos to you and me!

that's so awesome. Very good to hear it. Hurray for growing up!

Honestly the past year has been life changing.

This is such a great topic tbh - not always good, but not always bad either. Makes you think y'know?

Hm. I've been on subeta for almost 9 years now; started when I was about 12 and am now turning 21 this year. I would definitely say that I've experienced a huge change. I used to be a happy kid when I was younger and then went through what most kids go through, bullying. I had a rough couple of years and then thought I had toughened it out, but it made me very insensitive. I can't believe I used to be proud about having no tact and no compassion! I tell you now, I was an angry kid and person. But I graduated high school in 2013 and a few months later had my first internship abroad - China! All by myself at the tender age of 17. It's pretty cool to tell people that I had my 18th birthday in China. I had a stint later on in the year working in Italy as well, then a few months later started uni in Malaysia. It's been pretty amazing experiencing so much and it has very much grown me as a person.

I very much still have issues with anxiety and myself often, but it's being balanced out by, not necessarily confidence, but a self-assuredness that tells me it's ok to exist in my space, that everyone I come into contact with has something beautiful about them, even me. It's a pleasant feeling to have.

But hey, I'm still learning and improving.

Side note - I recently realized I've been increasing my use of exclamation marks in casual chatting which makes me kind of happy since it's usually related to how excited I am. I went through a bad spot of almost total apathy for a while.

I recently had my eleven year anniversary here on subeta! (: I am 27-almost-28 and was 16-almost-17 when I started this account! In terms of subeta, I still collect plushies, dote on a few pets, and creep the forums/SB. My friends have come&go, but I still turn up on subeta.

As for my personality, I've grown up quite a bit, but I'm still rather naïve when it comes to interacting with and trusting certain people. I've recently come into an assistant manager position at a bookstore. It's been lots of fun and I'm learning things about people and authority. No fun, sometimes! I feel like my circle of friends has shrunk remarkably since I've lost lots of Internet friends with all the growing up and haven't branched out to get new, shiny IRL friends.

I joined Subeta when I was 12 and a half (way back in 2008) so I've been here for almost 8 years?! It's almost inconceivable that I've been here this long, certainly longer than my stint on Neopets (I want to say... 2 - 4 years), but I'm glad to have found my way here. Even as a kid lurking on the Neoboards, most of the topics discussed were all Neopets-related whereas Subeta (and more recently, Tumblr) exposed me to real life experiences of the users here and really helped me to better empathise with people (both here and IRL).

I would say that I have mellowed out since my pre-teen years. I used to be such a brat, and looking back, I realise the chaos and destruction I cast upon the people in my life (sounds dramatic, but I really was a terror). It continued up until my late teen years, where I gradually realised that life doesn't revolve around me 24/7 and that I should wise up my act. After high school, I packed up and moved to another state, living on my own for the first time. Being alone definitely shaped the current me, because for the first year I hadn't made any meaningful relationships yet, so I spent a lot of time reflecting on the person I wanted to be.

Words my peers and family used to describe me up til I turned 18, I think: loud, sarcastic, argumentative, proud, stubborn, obnoxious, arrogant, selfish, insensitive, harsh, bratty, self-centred, the devil

As a whole, I think I still do retain some of those traits (self-centred and stubborn) and I nearly jeopardised one of my friendships late last year. I am trying to work on improving myself and being more thoughtful towards others (especially how my words or actions affect them). In a month, I'll turn 20. My teen years were a hell of a ride with hormones, manufactured drama and dysfunction. Here's hoping my twenties will be a a hell of a journey too.

I'm always pleased to bump into people currently living in/from Malaysia (here on Subeta), as that's my county of birth. Nice to meet you!

I've had my account for about 6 years (I had to check because I couldn't remember). I was 17 when I joined.

Since then I've gotten my driver's license, finished school, got my first job, changed my religious views, learned how to socialize (but still suck at it), lost about 50lbs, learned how to groom myself, how to dress better, fell rather deeply in (unrequited) love annnd because of that last part I don't know that I'm necessarily a happy person BUT I'd say I've made leaps and bounds overall.

My life has changed tremendously, my mentality has changed a lot, but I still struggle with self-esteem issues and I find myself thinking about only 2 things for the most part: the person I'm in love with, and all of my flaws and mistakes I've made along the way and how to fix them.

I guess I should be proud? I had a lot of trouble imagining myself accomplishing what practically everyone accomplishes in life. It's quite a relief that I turned out...somewhat normal P: I also enjoy not being anxious over engaging in new activities, because when I was a teenager, the simplest tasks seemed intimidating to me.

For most of my teenage years I stayed indoors, socializing only on forums and chatrooms attached to them, playing video games and then when getting new video games became too expensive, I just stuck to watching YouTube and I think Subeta is the last forum I'm on.

Now I go out with friends, though the past few weeks I haven't gone out as much. Oftentimes I still feel like an outsider and like I'm just a dumb floater since I often get quiet and occasionally get depressed as I feel inferior to everyone around me, especially when my crush is around. Last couple times were fun though, I don't know what it all depends on...sometimes I'm good, a lot of the time I'm not.

Ultimately, I'm still figuring myself out, but I HAVE changed for the better. There's room for improvement but I acknowledge my achievements and hope to use them to remind myself that I can do things.

I joined subeta like 2 years ago as a high schooler who very much didn't have her life together. Thankfully a year of college has turned me into a much more organized person ^^

I don't think much has changed for me, but it's probably only been a year? Less than a year actually. In the course of that time though, I got a job at McDonald's, quit a job at McDonald's, had a birthday, had a couple of job interviews. And lately I'm really trying to throw myself into the job thing. I feel like I'm doing as much as I can, but nothing's working. I've been out of University since 2013 and I have no idea what to do.

ANYWAY I also lost my therapist and increased my medication dosage. I'm still trying to work on my social anxiety...honestly I don't know how I'm not feeling scared to post right now.

On another note, it's interesting to see how many of you have been using Subeta straight through your teen years. It's really cool to see how people assess themselves years later.

I have changed loads, I was here ages ago, left, came back and in a few years time I met someone who i fell in love with and hopefully can move in with, I learned the value of money a lot more lol, dealt with depression and anxiety, I learned to control it. I learned how to be a better person and how to deal with friendships and relationships.

I see loads of cringeworthy things I used to do here, I didnt know how to socialize very well either.

I think I was around twelve or thirteen when I joined and am now twenty-two. A lot of my time on Subeta has been spent on hiatus, which I think is a testament to how much time I had to change.

While I've been a part of this community, I learned a lot about myself. Sexuality, relationships, life experiences, mental illness, pets, etc. Everything changes.

I've dated three people. Each person changed me significantly. I've dealt with online relationships, long distance relationships, being cheated on, being ignored and abused and neglected. I now know that I'm pansexual. I'm in a friends-with-benefits relationship with my best friend, which is ridiculous because thirteen-year-old me would've thought myself too pure for something like this. I've dealt with depression. Two of my cats have died, I had about seventeen rabbits, and my two mice died. People have died. So much happens.

I've definitely changed for the better. Although I'm still depressed, I know how to deal with it now. I know how to fight back against my abusers. I'm in a good place in terms of relationships, though I could be in a better place; we'll see. I've experienced so much that I didn't think I would get to as a preteen.

I'm proud of who I was at thirteen and I'm proud of who I am now.

Member for: 10 years, 3 months, 5 days

Hah, wow. What a trip. I think we've had kind of a similar experience (esp the progression from neopets, and how the internet was an escape from all the IRL crap I couldn't cope with), but man, if I can get a little cliche here, change is the only constant. I'm turning 25 this year, and I signed up on Subeta right around my sophomore year after moving to a new state and a new school.

how do you even summarize a decade's worth of changes, all over the course of time that constitutes "growing up"? I've been through a couple of really shitty relationships that definitely changed me in their own ways; graduated aforementioned school, started college, gotten even more sick than I already was, subsequently dropped out of college; had 16 different jobs, moved 13 times (most of them in the last 5 years, some of that time spent being homeless) and over a span of thousands of miles (and back again to where I started - twice); lived with no less than 22 different people; been hospitalized more than once; went from being the most obnoxious type of "I'll be straightedge for life!!", grammar-correcting, goody two-shoes, pious vegetarian, stuck up asshole kid to being an omnivorous stoner with authority issues (lmfao, doesnt that usually go the other way around??); have wound up in tens of thousands of dollars worth of debt (ain't that just the way?); lost my car and the privilege of driving, as well as a majority of the possessions I've had over the years (after so much moving, I like to travel light, now... and I'm moving again this week!); lost some of my best friends, including my childhood pet and a lovely confidante of mine who deserved so much better... but also made some of my best friends, too; lost my spirituality, and then regained it; figured out some pretty important stuff wrt gender and sexuality; gotten a bunch of tattoos, the list goes on.

perhaps most notably, I don't use the "xD" or "o_O" emoticons anymore. I have moved onto dad face :^) and possum mouth :V

I probably haven't changed much due to Subeta since I joined here a year & half ago (when I was 23 - now 25). I haven't been on here much due to just different interests or other things to bemuse me when bored.

But that could change if I stick around & make friends on here.