Thanks Doug!! And it does feel very good to honor Joe, so thanks for saying so!! It's funny cause earlier someone said that it was cool that I put Hagel in the name since it seemed to fit with the pet, and then I explained that it was Joe's actual name, lol!! (Howard Joseph von Hagel) I guess I should have mentioned that in my initial post!! :)

Well thanks, again, for stopping by!! How are you doing today, did you get enough sleep? Are you working tonight?

Lovely pet and sweet name. Good way to remember him. :)

Thank you !! I guess I'd better remember him since I now have 3 pets with different versions of his name. He had a great name so there was a lot to work with. :) I hope you're having a good day! Thanks again for popping by!! :)

Beautiful tribute to him, Gwendelynn

Thank you very much, Andrew

It's a lovely tribute and Joe did have a great name!

The moon last night as beautiful and very full. I should have had my camera out there, but I enjoyed watching it without taking a picture.

Thanks it means a lot to me that my friends have stopped by to acknowledge this and TY for the compliment to Joe's name!! If I hadn't already had a name that I like a lot (that I paid to have completely changed 25 years ago) I might have taken his name. We used to refer to ourselves as the PeaceVonHagels for fun (only capitalizing the V for clarity, since it's supposed to be lower case) but neither of us ever changed since we knew it would never fit on a form!! Anyway we each had pretty distinctive and good names (once I had changed mine from a very ugly name, lol) so we each kept our own.

I missed that moon but I'm glad you had a chance to see it!! :)

Congratulations my dear! I really like the name, and Neelas are so gorgeous! There is something about the Glacier Neela that looks both regal yet, "Guardian of the Frost Lands" at the same time. Plus, I like part names, With Van, or Von, De La and so on ^_^ huggles

Thank you sweetie!! And THAT really WAS Joe's name: Howard Joseph von Hagel (the actual name, some ppl thought I made part of it up, lol)

How are you doing? Did you post an update of what's happening with you at LRVT? I really miss you these days, has anything improved at ALL? (if you've posted about it elsewhere just let me know, and I'll go there to read, actually I will go and see if I can find a post of yours on LRVT right now) I hope you're still here!!

Aw, what a lovely tribute. The Glacier Neela is a beautiful pet and fits his name perfectly. :)

Oh thank you so much!! It really means a LOT to me!!! ❤

I just remembered that I was meaning to write you back RE: your last sMail about "family" and I'll just say that I know what you mean when you say that it's over rated. For now, until I get around to responding. sigh. I am so bad at keeping up. I have a nephew who's in jail and I am terrible about writing him. If I could email him I would in a heartbeat, but it's very hard for me to write, actually use my hand, arm, etc to write anymore because of the joint stuff.

My mom just called to tell me about Robin Williams because she knows that I don't have any TV hook up and i feel so SAD about it, that I wish I had someone to talk to!! :(

You're welcome, of course. :)

It's super hard for me to write to people too. Just thinking of what to say is hard enough in and of itself, and if it has to be handwritten, i'm even more likely to procrastinate forever. It's weird, i used to write pages and pages of stuff every day, between homework and journaling, but now i'm so used to typing everything that it's very tiring to hand-write even a quick note; my hand feels like it will fall off as soon as i pick up a pencil, haha. Maybe you could type it and print it out with a nice handwritten-looking font if that's easier; i expect your nephew would understand!

It really is sad and so unfortunate about Robin Williams. That really surprised me because i didn't even know he was going through personal difficulties; he's one of the last celebrities i would have expected to go that way. I never followed him that closely (i tend not to pay much attention to celebs in general) but i've enjoyed a lot of things he was in. He was a talented guy for sure.

That is quite a name, my dear, and very fine. ^^ I miss you a lot as well. At the moment I am very hungry, and I have replied to thee in the other thread. Also, I must say, your avie looks gorgeous. ^^

I know what you mean when you say you "used to write pages of stuff" cause I did too. I was a profuse journaler and I simply can't write at all now, I can barely print. My nephew wouldn't mind at all if I sent him a printed letter, but unfortunately maintaining the printer was Joe's "baby." He loved to print & I've always been an ink and paper miser, so I rarely print anything and if I replace the ink it will simply dry up. I always thought it was cute how Joe wanted to print everything, yet he'd go through his things about twice a year and shred and dispose of just about everything he'd printed, along with all the other stuff ppl shred.

This printer was a gift from me to him on one of his 4 birthdays that I ever got to spend with him. It's a copier and fax, you know the whole thing. I used it as a copier for awhile. After he died I had to dissemble his desk area. It was really painful but after his asshole son stole that computer right out of my home I couldn't bare to look over at that empty space for more than a couple months. It was one of the few things I've changed around here since he died. Ugh!!

So I'm going on about Joe again. :( I'm just SO sad since I heard about Robin Williams. I was a HUGE fan of his serious acting more than his comedy, I own 3 or 4 of his movies on DVD. I knew he was a brilliant comedian but whenever I saw him on talk shows I saw a man who was hiding a LOT of pain behind the comedy and it made it hard for me to watch him. I'm very "psychic sensitive" which is simply a fancy way to say that I'm intuitive, so I perceive a LOT in ppl, especially their emotional pain.

Anyway...I lost my train of thought, but I think that was all I had to say about all of that. Thanks for "listening."

Thank you for the avie compliment!! I threw this together faster than any other HA I've ever made! I should do that more often. I always keep the same bracelets on since I love those so much. I will probably not change them til the holidays.

I hope you get something to eat SOON!!

You can read what I wrote to diesel above this to see more of where I am these days. I'm feeling angry at my mom for calling me last night to let me know about Robin Williams. She loves to be sensational, but she just left me hanging because she "had to call to let me know since she knows that I don't have TV" and then she had to go right away. She is clueless that it was just Joe's birthday and about how very much pain that brought up for me. I had been sitting here feeling frozen and unable to feel ever since a day or two before his birthday.

I was pretty much holding it all in, even when I talked about Joe, I am back to not being able to cry. R. Williams reminded me of Joe--especially after he died and I googled him and discovered that he was born July 21st, and I suspect he had Leo rising, he was SUCH a Leo in terms of how he used performance to hide his feelings. Joe did that when we first got together.

He would be telling me stories from the past and would stand up and tell the story as if it were a comedy routine, but most of his stories were tragic, about things that people had done to him, and he made jokes about it the first time he told me, but after that when we talked about all the times he'd been hurt by others he wasn't laughing anymore. One time when he was young his gf dropped him cold and soon after that he was at a party and he borrowed a motorcycle to take a ride and this girl he met went along.

So they were going slowly & the cycle went off the shoulder and it tipped the bike. The girl just hopped off the back and she was fine but Joe got pinned under it seriously broke his leg & landed in the hospital, in traction for quite awhile. The girl came to visit & his ex found out (and she NO interest in Joe, but she was a bitch) so when he was released and was on crutches she was acting all nice and offered to drive him home, but took him out to the middle of a field on some pretense & ditched him, so he had to walk miles on crutches. He told me that story the first time as if it were a big joke, but he was still feeling hurt about it nearly 30 yrs later and I could tell. People can be so cruel.

After I heard that news last night I called Nick in WI & we talked over 2 hrs. I was SO tired after that, and SO hungry that I couldn't even fix anything. I grabbed cheese, bread & junk food and collapsed on my bed & barely ate before I fell asleep watching a DVD.

My mom just doesn't understand that ONE big reason that I don't watch TV is that I don't want to hear the sad stories, but then she just HAS to call and tell me!! If she were able to BE available to listen it would be OK but she's nearly always too tired and I can't make an issue of it since she's almost 83 and has a bad heart and is dealing with living with my brother the drug addict, but she gets a LOT of company from him being there while I'm here alone all the time and they are 3 miles away and I NEVER see them.

I was feeling pretty good yesterday cause my dad called me in the morning but after I got that news and it brought up so much about Joe it just carried over to today and I have been feeling frozen in my chair (and I actually have been feeling that way for weeks, so it's nothing new, just feels more intense lately)...OK well I hope this isn't over the limit!! I love you much! ❤ miss you as well. :(

that is a very sweet tribute to him and I love the minion you have paired with him as well. Congrats on the name change for him and hope you are doing well :)

Hi and thanks for stopping by!! I appreciate your congrats and you're the first person to notice and mention the minion!! Thank you, and I hope all is well. BTW your HA is gorgeous!!