On temporary lay off, having issues with processing with unemployment because of how swamped they are. More than anything, I miss the gym. Don't hate having more time at home, but it wears and wears day after day having no routine. Feels like I'm in ground hogs day... I hate to complain because it could be worse, but maaaaaaannnn this is a weird time.
I've been doing yoga online thru Zoom, which has been nice. I think I should start going for runs, I have so much energy at night I can't sleep anymore. And too much phone time.
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I was hoping to send some time RPing on Subeta or Gaia but I'm finding that it is quite dead on both sites. So instead I'm hanging out with my cats...
Fortunately, I am able to work from home for now. The most difficult part has been quarantine and isolation, especially since my situation at home is not ideal. I do not get along well with my family and it's not something I can really escape. I just hope I can close my eyes and all of this will have been a thing of the past for everyone going through it. I also struggle with bipolar and anxiety so it's been a relapse period for me.
Being physically away from my partner has also been incredibly hard and it has put a strain on our relationship - we do not have the financial means to live together for the time being. So I kind of feel like I'm stuck with people who do not get me in this less than ideal situation. However, I do recognize that at least I have a job for the time being and that I am healthy.
I try to take it one day at a time and look at the better side of things every day. I try. I hope you're all keeping safe. A big hug.
Read about my pets: ♡The murderous gentleman ♡The femme fatale ♡The troubled musician
I don't have a job at the moment but I did have social groups that I went to, and I volunteered at a youth club. I miss going to those places, and I miss going to my grandparent's house, I would go there to have some space away from home but they're both over 70, and now I'm stuck here, never being truly alone because of my younger siblings, and my Mum's boyfriend is allowed to still have his kids over and I don't have anything against them but that makes 7 of us in a tiny house. And I wish I'd gone to my Dad's house when I still had the chance, I haven't been since January and now I don't know when I'll get to visit again.
Urgh, this hurts a lot, the only place I can really go to is the local park, but I have no one to dress nice for there, and every time I go there feels like I'm temporarily escaping from reality only to come right back to it when I go home. I grew up with very little freedom because of my overprotective parents, and I've had more freedom for the last 6 or 7 years but now it's been taken away from me and it's made me depressed.
And I'm Autistic as well and the disruption of routines is also depressing. And I'm also scared of dying, I'm young and I don't have any underlying health problems that I know of but I've heard other people without health problems are getting severly affected, and my Mum works in a shop so she could catch it and bring it to us and also have been exposed to a lot of it so I think it could still affect us badly. If I disappear from this website without warning for about a year, just assume that I died. I even left a message on my external hard drive with my online passwords so someone could use them to access my accounts and let my online friends know what happened to me.
The worst part is that no one can promise me things will get better soon, no one can tell me when "soon" is, I hate the uncertainty, I hate not knowing when this will end, I hate that there doesn't seem to be an end in sight, how am I supposed to survive this mentally even if I survive physically?
I lost my job, I had to come back home since my college closed. My college is supposed to move? I think? No one actually told me if I "lost" my job. I don't know if I was laid off and I can't really ask because their lines are busy. I miss being in college so I can actually do class work. I just feel trapped because I cant even see my fiance :(
I was in vet school in the Caribbean when things went south and the school paid to evacuate all of us off the island. I have been living in my parent's house since March 15th. I just finished up the term/semester online a few days ago, and I am now officially done with my third year of vet school! I am scheduled to start my 4th year on May 18th, and at least the first 3 months will be online. I'm really sad because I am finally to the point in my schooling where things are supposed to be all hands-on in a clinical setting from here on out and I was supposed to finally start feeling like a real doctor, but nope, it's online. How am I supposed to learn to properly take x-rays and clean teeth from online??
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I'm one of the few lucky enough not to lose my job as i'm a freelance writer and my job is online. I'm also very fortunate i live with my fiance and our pets. So in this regard nothing changed. Visiting parents was already not really happening since fiance's parents moved out of city and we don't drive. and we rarely went to my parents as well.
The martial law is supposed to relax a bit next friday and we'll be able to go out without risking a fine if we don't have a paper with a good reason.
might be triggering for some readers, so beware
In the beginning things were really bad for me. mentally. about a month ago i seriously contemplated ending my life as i was feeling trapped, having no rights, no freedom. it was really bad. my mental state improved since then and i chase away all dark thoughts and mentions of life-ending...
i'm still pissed that people just accepted the martial law situation. it was illegal to instate in the first place because we're NOT at war and no natural catastrophe happened, IE earthquake, flood, earth splitting in two...
I really have to update my blog ObscureJourney and my review site BeingObscure. French speakers can read my reviews here.