I believe it. I really hope you can get some rest soon.

Hey. I haven't been on since I guess late June or early July? I actually had a really heavy reason why and it's been tough to reach out and not get overwhelmed after all this. On the 11th I took a serious attempt of my own life while my boyfriend was at work. He thankfully knew the signs of me getting into a dark place and he called 911. An ambulance and cops did come (seeing the cops made me panic worst) but I didn't get to see Alex until a few hours later. They took me to the ER where after I was in there for a few hours they sent me to a mental health facility for a 72 hour hold. I decided to stay another 2 days because I really felt like for once I was getting better for real.

They gave me a new diagnoses that I have been begging therapists for years to consider, which included Bipolar and BPD. (Bipolar actually runs in my family, my birth mother has bipolar) They also gave me other diagnoses which I already knew like PTSD but they helped me start to work through the abuse that caused that and other issues. So yeah that's what happened and I've been getting back into a good pace of life, I've been working again (only a couple days after I got let out) and it's been 48 hours each week. But it will be good pay and I know it won't last forever! But anyways sorry for the long post but I didn't want you thinking I ditched you for a month almost :( Like I said though life is going a lot better and smoother now I'm on the right meds and getting help for all my issues, it's like a breath of relief finally.

I am so sorry that you went through all of that, but I am really glad to know that Alex knew what to look out for and that he got you the help you needed. I'm also really happy to see that the doctors listened to you and have been working to make sure that you get properly diagnosed and treated so that you can have a happier life and have the tools you need to make that possible. I'm glad you've got people that you need and deserve in your corner who care about your well being hugs

Yeah

I am so sorry you hit so low. I am glad that you've got the new diagnosis and you're on the up. That is, at least, good news. I hope everything keeps getting better ❤️❤️

How much more do you have to do before you're done?

I don't even know. More crops up daily.

-snugs- hope the day is going well dont worry about here. Rl is more important. Feel better

Ugh, I'm sorry hugs

It was long but not terrible. My car is still in the shop though. I should have it back in the morning.

i didn't know it was in the shop. Glad it wasn't terrible day though

Oh yeah, Tuesday night I got home and it was smoking and overheating all of a sudden. Had it towed in yesterday. Radiator is bad, so they had to replace that and all the hoses. Then they called just a bit ago and asked when my last oil change was because the oil was super low and really dirty....it wasn't long enough ago for it to be that bad so they're gonna change that in the morning before I go get it.

ugh! I bet that'll be expensive :(

It was going to be $435 total before the oil change came up. So idk what it will be now. Probably more like $480-490. It's a lot less than I expected it to be so that's a relief, and I happen to have the money right now when I normally wouldn't, so I guess it was the best time for it to take a shit.

ugh so much. but I'm glad its less than you thought it would be and you had the money. -snugs-

Me too. I was expecting thousands so this is definitely much better.

hope the repairs last a long, long time <3

I want to be done with cleaning already.

i know that feeling. Our move so sucked

I need $1200+ more repairs so....yeah. It's still worth it because I cannot afford a car payment, but all this is costing me at least a third of what I managed to save to help us make rent through the end of the year. It has to be done though. I'm....about ready to have a breakdown.

I do not blame you.

Yeah, and yours had to be quick as well.

CLEAN FOR MEEEEEE

I won't even clean for me my friend lol