right? i understand that they have other patients to take care of, but it drives me nuts when i see them all huddled together, talking and laughing. like, hello? you have patients. i might not be their number one priority, but i felt so overwhelmed with everything, they didn't even help at all. also, i think the nurse that took blood for my labs did something wrong. the second she put the needle in, i had a burning sensation down to my wrist. when she took it out, the burning continued for a good few hours. i told her about the pain and she said it was normal. i've had a lot of blood tests done, and that has NEVER happened to me. now i'm unable to use my right arm's total limit of strength, because it feels like my skin is going to tear apart.

and eh, i felt better yesterday. i called my primary doctor, and i have an appointment for later on to get back on my original medicine. i'm gonna ask them about my arm too, because it's starting to concern me. i just want to know at least what she did wrong because this hurts.

how are you feeling?

Oh I had several nurses and docters taking my blood and all felt different. With some I had nothing, some made it bruise and with some I couldn't stretch my arm... Yes, ofcourse. Maybe she touched a nerve or something. Primary doctors are the best, they do know you the best aswell if you had them for a few years.

Today, I'm completely happy and excited but in the back of my head it's concerning me when it will be over and how deep I will fall again. But I'm playing Guild Wars at the moment to clear my mind from everything

- That's awful and I'm sorry about the late reply. I've been too depressed to talk to anyone for a few days.

I've learned that hospitals generally have the most inattentive staff unless you look like you're physically dying. It's really sad how they don't take mental heath issues seriously. And, it sounds like the nurse did a horrible job with the needle insertion and hit something sensitive. I hope the primary doctor can set you back on the right track!

When I had to go to ER, I was having blackouts, had some instances of not being able to breathe, and losing my speech and memory. I apparently signed papers, but all I remember is seeing my signature on a paper and wondering how it got there. The doctor insisted I was okay and released me. At least my blackouts are a lot less frequent once I was released perhaps because of the IV.

I'm glad I was able to figure out what was wrong, because the hospital gave me no answers and of the immature psychiatrist.

- Where you are, they have specialty high school diplomas? :O

Yes :) I live in Belgium and here we graduate at 18 (or the year we become 18). Our main school system can be seperated in three sections; ASO (General High school or smartasses lol), TSO (Technical High School, what I did.) or BSO (More like profession directed high school, a lot of them don't have to do test or exams.)

In ASO, you probably do "Modern languages", "Economics", "Science", "Greek" or "Latin". Mixed with mathematics and blabla. These people really learned to study and are more likely to succeed at college or university. They also tend to earn more in the future.

In TSO, you can choose a lot of different options. My school only had trade/bussiness related classes. After you got your diploma you can choose if you'll find a job. It will be less paid than when you come from ASO. It's more for people who don't like to study but don't want a "low" diploma. We still do exams and tests and have to study but it's more laid back.

In BSO, (what my boyfriend did) you have a lot of different options too. He did "Hotel school - Catering". So since he's 14, he was already working as a cook. It's really specific what you'll become. Because you've sen nothing else than for example cooking and serving dishes.

We also have KSO. It's art school. I always wanted to do that but i wasn't allowed. In the days of my mother it had a really bad name. But I think if i could have done this I would be better at expressing myself through art.

So yeah, we don't actually have to go to college or university but a lot of jobs ask for bachelors and master.

i went and saw my primary doctor to get my medicine i was originally on, and thankfully she gave me a lot of refills. i also asked her about my arm, and she told me the girl had hit my nerve ):

are you doing okay? i'm here if you would like to talk.

Thought so! Is it still hurting? Hope it will get better soon! How have you been the last days?

- That's awesome to have those options in high school! It's much more realistic than Florida where it's like you're expected to complete high school (which doesn't prepare anyone for anything since the curriculum is all about preparing for tests) and then go straight to college.

I almost didn't graduate high school because of how boring and rigid it was. The work was dumb and easy... I just hate busy work, which is what high school was to me. I would have loved that art school you mentioned.

- Yay for your primary doctor! I hope that nerve disruption heals properly. :/

I've been bored of Subeta, so I've been playing video games and watching videos. I'm still very depressed, most likely because of the parents and the summer. I'm trying to get in control of it, which I see tiny progress of that happening every few days.

I have had problems with anxiety and depression since I was 16 (I'm 21 now). My parents thought I was just a hormonal teenager acting out. I didn't truly get any help until I was an adult (18). It got to the point where I would freak out, not want to go to work because of the disabling effects of it and I would have to leave early and practically beg someone to cover for me. I would cry everyday and freak out for no reason. The smallest thing would trigger it. (I have to be cheerful serving) I have tried going to the psychologist but it wasn't my fancy. Didn't help that I felt the woman was looking down at me and didn't offer any support at all. I finally just went to my regular doctors for medication. My boyfriend is aware that I have problems and mishaps even on medication sometimes, everyone around me seems to understand, it makes everything much easier when everyone is aware of the situation. I feel better, I'm aware when I feel a breakdown coming so I can alert someone not to be alarmed. By any means, do NOT miss a dose of medication, it fucks you up. I made that mistake and I was a mess for a couple of days afterward.

Hi! We're pretty much in the same situation. Everyone one knows around me but sometimes it feels like they forgot. I never really talked about it to anyone. So when I have a bad mood I just fele ignored :/

You should really talk to someone about it. Anxiety/Depression is such a common problem amongst other people around you. I was amazed that I talked to both my boyfriend's mother and my coworkers how many of them were actually experiencing it too. It's always good that you have someone that can relate to what your dealing with. Don't feel ashamed about it.