Will do!

Thanks so much for hanging around to talk, I haven't really had anybody to talk to in person and I feel like if I leave any more posts on facebook about her people are going to think I'm nuts.

You're welcome. Sometimes it's easier to talk to someone over a website than in real life. Not to mention it's such a delicate situation.

Normally I would annoy my best friend with what's going on, but she has the opinion that anybody who commits suicide is weak and selfish and doesn't care who they hurt. I've tried to explain it to her but I think she might be purposely refusing to understand it.

Wow. Thank you for making this sensitive post. A dear friend of mine passed away over a year ago, and when she did her absence was felt by many people who she had helped in tough times just by talking with them. If anything, her death opened peoples' eyes by making them (me, at least) aware of how important it is to be there for one another in the way that she was. The support and love she had for the world could never really be replaced but everyone she touched are much better people because of her. You are putting something in the world for your friend, just by sharing your love for her. Everyone could use a reminder to love the few people they have on this earth.

Thanks for the reply, it was very well timed, I actually just got back from her funeral. If I had to describe losing Jess it would be that the world is a little darker without her in it, but a little more beautiful because she was.

I am so sorry for your loss. If there is one thing to take baby steps into, is realizing that this is not your fault. I hope for much strength for this process. For you taking the time out writing to the Subeta community about your dear friend, shows how much of an amazing friend you are.

Stay strong <3 hugs

Thank you so much. I've been managing to accept I didn't do/not do anything, but it is a sad thought that the support I offered her wasn't what she needed. I know it's not realistic to expect anyone to say all the right things all the time, but the feeling is harder to get over. hugs