Long story short, I have been struggling with some anxiety/depression issues for a long time now. For years there have been times where I just felt "off" and sad even though things in my life were going well. Usually it would come and go, but the anxiety has been getting a lot worse the past few months and I finally got the courage to call a therapist and set up an appointment. I'm super scared but I hope it will help.

Thanks for reading. :)

Good for you! I hope you have a good experience at your appointment. Just making an effort to fix it will help you, even if you get nothing else out of it.

hugs As someone who has dealt with the same problem most of her life, I just want to say I am so proud of you! This is a very good thing, even if it doesn't feel like it sometimes, even if it scares you, you're doing the right thing. I wish you the best of luck!!

Thank you and

My first appointment is this Wednesday. It couldn't be at a better time because I had an absolutely horrible experience yesterday. I still haven't recovered and I haven't been able to focus at work. I just want to go home. I'm so ready to feel better.

hugs Things will get better. As cliche as it sounds, it's true. Good luck. :)

good job. :) I know I was terrified when I first went to see someone for my depression. It might take some time before you really start to feel different but keep at it. I think it took me a couple of months. Also, if you don't like or feel comfortable with that specific person, it's perfectly normal and ok to switch to another counselor. I hope it goes well. :)

Just got an email that my appointment tonight needs to be rescheduled for next week. I am so sad :( After the horrible day I had Sunday and the stressful anxiety ridden event I have this weekend I really needed tonight. :(

So proud of you! I hope it works out well, and helps you out in the long run.

See, I'm on a medicine for depression and anxiety and honestly it helps me through the day 100x better without it. It sucks that I have to depend on a pill to not feel so depressed, but it's worth not feeling so empty inside.

I'm actually out of my medicine, unfortunately. I just don't understand why my doctor won't give me multiple refills, because I hate making the appointment to go back to the doctors office and waste my time just to get a piece of paper, but whatever.

Good luck, and let me know how it went!

Thank you for the kind words. :) I am open to try medication if it will help me. I'm usually super nervous about taking any kind of medicine, but at this point I'm willing to risk it to feel normal for once. I will let you know how it goes. :)

It took a lot of courage to even admit that seeing a therapist would help. I know that being put on internal chemistry altering medication can be scary, I was on medication for most of my life till a few years ago, and if they proscribe you something don't be afraid to speak up if the medication doesn't really mesh well with you, it took a good friend of mine about three different attempts before he found the right medication for himself. Eh what am I saying, you had the guts to take the first steps, I have the utmost confidence you'll be just fine.

I'm on the same type of medication and agree that it makes life soooo much easier!

Good for you for taking the first step. I know you had a bit of a setback with the appointment reschedule, but don't let that discourage you! I wish you the best of luck.

I still haven't made an appointment, erk. I have an anxiety medicine which helps me not be anxious, obviously. But my depression is just sitting there like, "help me."

I'm on a medicine that's pretty much a 2-in-1, it handles my anxiety and depression (for the most part). Of course, there are still times where I feel either depression or anxiety, but it is far less frequent than before. I also don't like having to depend on a pill to make me feel "normal" but I have to remind myself that it is a medical condition and it is ok to utilize my available resources to assist.

, thank you so much! And those are some awesome instruments you have there! :D

, thank you. The cancellation was a huge blow because this week has been overloaded with anxiety mess. I hope that this weekend goes better than I'm expecting but I'm dreading it like crazy right now, and my mind is being so negative. I just need to stay strong and remember just a few more extra days till I can talk it all out.

my original medicine is a 2-in-1 as well! But that's the one I'm out of, so for some reason my doctor only gave me an anxiety prescription? I don't even know.

I've been in and out of depression for different reasons and I honestly have not gone to anyone for help, just because I don't have the extra money for it. I will tell you it is extremely difficult to wake up every day and try to fix yourself and your life to make yourself feel happy. I still struggle some days to keep it together and force myself to go outside and do things that are fun. I'm always worried that someone will put me on meds, which should probably be a last resort after counselling. You have a lot of courage to look for help! I hope everything gets better for you :)

Well, I had a very stressful weekend. I felt extremely uncomfortable, sad, stressed, weirded out, and happy at certain points throughout the weekend. The icing on the cake was Sunday night when I was confronted again on all my faults. Setting up an appointment with a therapist that I haven't seen yet (beyond my control, by the way I didn't want her to cancel) isn't something to be proud of apparently. I was told it was like admitting that you're fat. Admitting that you're fat doesn't do anything. Setting up an appointment doesn't do anything, either. At least strangers on the internet understand the huge step that was. Thank you.

Did this weekend pass without too much anxiety/disturbance?

Solving half the problem doesn't really help :(

The weekend itself was pretty difficult, but I think I did better than expected. I still felt uncomfortable and anxious, but even with all those feelings I felt optimistic at the end. I didn't expect the worst of it to be when I got back and any ounce of optimism I had went down the drain. As I sit on the sofa emotionally drained and exhausted, I'm confronted once again with all my faults. She's doing it because she cares, but I can't take it anymore. I feel so attacked and ashamed. I can't handle the aggressiveness of her nature. She said until I get help she doesn't want to talk to me about my problems anymore. I didn't want to talk to her about them in the first place, she's the one who forced it out of me. It was so upsetting to me the way she talked about me not seeing the therapist last week, like it was just me chickening out. Like rescheduling wasn't good enough. Like the fact even setting the appointment up wasn't a huge step. I am seeing a therapist and a psychiatrist. The psychiatrist is booked 4 weeks out so I can't see them until September. She made it seem like I was just putting it off, even made the comment "if you even go". I would see that damn psychiatrist right this second if I could.

Sorry for the rant. I have so much in my mind right now. There is so much I haven't even touched on. One of the stupid things I worry about is her finding out about me seeking advice from the internet and reading the things I say.

I understand how stressful others can be when they have no clue what you are going through internally. Try not to let the negativity get to you and just stay focused on the fact that you do have an appointment coming up where you can truly rant and let out your thoughts and emotions. You are doing the best you can and taking steps toward feeling better about your situation. I am definitely here to listen if you need to express your feelings! It can be very difficult not to have someone to express yourself to and creates more frustration and anxiety than was previously there.